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Well. Things. Um, I have a lot of work this week. About 40 hours, which I suppose is average for most people, but almost twice what I usually work. Today (or I guess, technically "yesterday") I thought I might get to hang out with Zach from work. He is awesome and smart, and I was excited to hang out with a friend that wasn't Jesse's. But I haven't heard from him since we left work. I sent him a message after I got home from work, and haven't heard anything yet. I've tried to get in touch with him a couple of times today, but no luck. I don't know if something's wrong or he just forgot, or what. I'm anxious and disappointed. Since it's Sunday, I have been extra blah. But I played WoW and got Ophyria reasonably into level 66, and made a draenei priest on Farstriders. She's only level 8, though. Other than that, I finished reading Dark Reign: Deadpool/Thunderbolts, Batman: Lovers and Madmen and Young Avengers: Sidekicks, all of which were great. Deadpool is super awesome, as usual, and I actually sold a Deadpool comic yesterday. To a kid who seems to me, personally, to be too young to read it, but whatever. Lovers and Madmen was really interesting. I'd be interested to hear Dan'o and Suki's opinions of it. Or really anyone interested in comics. I had mixed feelings about the art. Certain panels I loved, and other times I thought it was unpleasant. Which I suppose is possibly intentional, because it reflects the nature of insanity and the relationship between Batman and the Joker fairly well. Insanity can lead to beautiful things--genius and creativity--but it can also be twisted and horrible. And the weird dependence that Batman and the Joker have is the same, the relationship that develops between them I think really reflects the dynamic of insanity. So that was interesting.
But I'm still anxious about the whole thing with Zach. It reminds me simultaneously of a lot of things: stuff with Jason Stafford (blast from the past!), Derek, Jason Babcock, and Tom. Tom is the only one allowed to flake out on me in any serious manner. So if he just flaked, that is probably going to result in rapid distancing between us. 'Cause I don't need a friendship like with Jason S, where I'm always the one trying to make things happen and the only one really invested in the friendship. Basically all the problems I had with Derek stemmed from my worry that he had only been friends with me because I was friends with Lauren. Even though there was sort of more to it, what it all comes down to is that. I thought I was alone in feeling like our friendship was important, and it got me so screwed up that I could barely talk to him for a year or whatever. So I don't need that, either. Anyway, I am mostly worried, because since we started talking to each other he's been really good about getting back to me at some point, even if it's a long time after I message him. 24 hours is kind of pushing it, though.
I hope everything is ok and that we can hang out another time.
I wanted to update earlier, but I don't really know what I wanted to say. So this will be good night.
P.S. "Spin Around" (by Crease) has been running through my head today. The text in the icon is from that song.
P.P.S. I really liked the Young Avengers comic. It was nice seeing how the team came together and everything. I think Billy is adorable, and I'm so glad they changed his name from Asgardian *eye roll* to Wiccan. I am going to have to track down the next volume.
But I'm still anxious about the whole thing with Zach. It reminds me simultaneously of a lot of things: stuff with Jason Stafford (blast from the past!), Derek, Jason Babcock, and Tom. Tom is the only one allowed to flake out on me in any serious manner. So if he just flaked, that is probably going to result in rapid distancing between us. 'Cause I don't need a friendship like with Jason S, where I'm always the one trying to make things happen and the only one really invested in the friendship. Basically all the problems I had with Derek stemmed from my worry that he had only been friends with me because I was friends with Lauren. Even though there was sort of more to it, what it all comes down to is that. I thought I was alone in feeling like our friendship was important, and it got me so screwed up that I could barely talk to him for a year or whatever. So I don't need that, either. Anyway, I am mostly worried, because since we started talking to each other he's been really good about getting back to me at some point, even if it's a long time after I message him. 24 hours is kind of pushing it, though.
I hope everything is ok and that we can hang out another time.
I wanted to update earlier, but I don't really know what I wanted to say. So this will be good night.
P.S. "Spin Around" (by Crease) has been running through my head today. The text in the icon is from that song.
P.P.S. I really liked the Young Avengers comic. It was nice seeing how the team came together and everything. I think Billy is adorable, and I'm so glad they changed his name from Asgardian *eye roll* to Wiccan. I am going to have to track down the next volume.
