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Yesterday was a good day. Not the kind of good day that is fun, but the kind in which important things happen and at the end of the day, you feel...renewed. I spent my morning waking up leisurely, and then met Zach for coffee at Bean There. It was nice. We just talked, mostly about relationships. He did most of the talking, too. I'm glad that he feels he can confide in me and talk to me.
On my way home, I called Mom and talked to her about...everything. My concerns, my fears, my insecurities and frustrations. Sometimes I wonder if I can do anything at all without her. It feels as if talking to her always helps untangle my thoughts, feelings, my life.
Once I got home, Jesse and I left to go to the store and bought the ingredients for beef stew (because it is tasty!). After we got back and began cooking, we also started talking. I think it was the most honest we have been with each other since our first summer together. Or maybe we have never been so honest with each other before. It was very therapeutic. I finally felt that we were on the same page and wanting the same things, from each other and in the long run.
I still don't know how we're going to navigate the near future, but I feel much better about it. I think we will find our own answer, maybe not as conventional an answer as we expected, but something that will work for both of us.
I am reminded again that in relationships there is no "right" way to be or live. What works for one couple won't work for another. That's all right. Jesse and I will find a path that we can walk together, or not. But I think we will.
On my way home, I called Mom and talked to her about...everything. My concerns, my fears, my insecurities and frustrations. Sometimes I wonder if I can do anything at all without her. It feels as if talking to her always helps untangle my thoughts, feelings, my life.
Once I got home, Jesse and I left to go to the store and bought the ingredients for beef stew (because it is tasty!). After we got back and began cooking, we also started talking. I think it was the most honest we have been with each other since our first summer together. Or maybe we have never been so honest with each other before. It was very therapeutic. I finally felt that we were on the same page and wanting the same things, from each other and in the long run.
I still don't know how we're going to navigate the near future, but I feel much better about it. I think we will find our own answer, maybe not as conventional an answer as we expected, but something that will work for both of us.
I am reminded again that in relationships there is no "right" way to be or live. What works for one couple won't work for another. That's all right. Jesse and I will find a path that we can walk together, or not. But I think we will.
