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Well. That was one of the worst down spells I've had in a long time. It lasted for about 2 hours, give or take, and it was intense. I thought I was coming apart. I wanted to scream. I did cry, profusely. Music helped, allowing me to cry and then easing me out of it before letting me cry again. I actually called Jesse, although I did call Tom first. I am not even sure how I made either of those calls. I felt as if I'd never leave the space under my bed again.

All it took was hearing Jesse's voice, knowing I was pulling him away from something, and even though I didn't instantly feel better, it was as if a dam broke. I could feel it flowing away. I'm glad I told him I needed to sort the rest out myself.

Reaching out is hard. I sent Paul a message, but now I realize he's talking D&D with Aedan and I can't break into that space. Isolation is the hardest part to shake off, I think, which is why it's so easy to fall back into the cycle.

"Point me toward the morning, someone point me toward the morning..."

Music. It is like light. The mind is unable to capture it in all its aspects, to describe the dazzling effect, it's myriad miracles.
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"Fred Astaire (acoustic)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"LACB" - The Muckruckers
Hotel California" - the Eagles
"Anywhere" - Stroke 9
"Singing in the Rain" - Gene Kelly
Locale AM (song unidentified)
"Friends" - Cowboy Mouth
"Fa-fa-fa-fa (sad song)" - the Commitments
"Heavy" - Train
Nutcracker for Guitar - Stevan Pasero
"Jive Samba" - Cannonball Adderly
"Tell the Girl" - Cowboy Mouth
"Anywhere" - Stroke 9, "Tell the Girl" - Cowboy Mouth
"Good" - Better Than Ezra
"Gwendolyn B. Sings Sin (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Closer to Our Graves" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Welcome" - Locale AM
"Broken" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Kick Some Ass" - Stroke 9
"Medicine & Gasoline" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"City to City (live with Bad Ronald)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Not Nothing" - Stroke 9 (B2B version)
"Gwendolyn B. Sings Sin (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Soldier Song (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Punk Jazz" - Jaco Pastorius
"Looking in Your Big Brown Eyes" - UB40
"Are You In" - Incubus
"Something There" - Beauty and the Beast
"Manny's Song" - Stroke 9
"I Left My Heart in San Francisco" - Dean Martin
"Drops of Jupiter" - Train
"Take Me to the River" - the Commitments
Swan Lake
"Prozak" - Dexter Freebish
"Faux Gucci Girl" - Stroke 9
"Apparitions" - Matthew Good
"Way Down" - Love.45
"Selectively Anti-Social" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"3 to 10" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Frustration" - Crease
"Tear Me In Two (acoustic)" - Stroke 9
"Faux Gucci Girl" - Stroke 9
"Baby, It's Cold Outside" - Dean Martin
"Ugly" - Locale AM
"Shoot Me In the Smile" - The Matches
"Laughing at Myself" - Stroke 9
"Do It Again" - Stroke 9
"Manny's Song" - Stroke 9
"More Than Local Boys" - the Matches
"Frustration" - Crease
"Selectively Anti-Social" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Selectively Anti-Social" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Rolling Rock (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Apology (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Evidence" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Second Heartbeat" - Avenged Sevenfold
"Bohemian Rhapsody" - Queen
"Sin City" - Nice Kick Pele
"Slip" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Far From Here" - The Dog & Everything
"Bright Future in Sales" - Fountains of Wayne
"Mindtrip" - Zebrahead
"Try a Little Tenderness" - The Commitments
Stephen Lynch (song unidentified)
"Think Twice" - Eve 6
"Envy" - Lucky Boys Confuison
"The Beginning" - Vallejo
"Omaha" - Tom Duffy
"Sparkling Wine" - Swizzle Tree
"On the Block" - The Matches
"(Scratched out)" - The Matches
"Sparkling Wine" - Swizzle Tree
"Think Twice" - Eve 6 / "Come Undone" - Love.45
"Sparkling Wine" - Swizzle Tree
"Last Dance" - Suburban Legends
Wish You Were Here part I
"Point Blank Range" - the Sick
"Uh-oh" - Cowboy Mouth
"Cosmic Castaway" - Electrasy
"You" - Suburban Legends
"Steve's Hair" - Stroke 9
"Soldier Song (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Laugh Six Times" - Locale AM
"Apology (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Soldier Song (live)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Vincent" - Don McLean
"Will I Ever Make It Home (live)" - Ingram Hill
"Gospel Machine Gun" - the Vanished
"Cold So Fast" - The Dog & Everything
"My Favorite Things" - John Coltrane
"Niteclub" - The Old 97s
"Wanted Dead" - Dexter Danger
""Superman (demo)" - The Matches
"La Vie En Rose" - Edith Piaf
"Dumb Pop Song" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Fuck Your Sister" - Stephen Lynch
"So Cool" - 19 Wheels
"Set You Free" - Stroke 9
"Hey Luv" (live w/ Stubhy) - The Dog & Everything
"Do It For the Kids" - Suburban Legends
"Machine Gun" - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy
"Mindtrip" - Zebrahead
"Sweet Home Chicago" - Blues Brothers
"40 oz to Freedom" - Badfish, live
"Good Enough" - 19 Wheels
"CB's Caddy Part II" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"What It's Like" - Everlast
"Rock the Boat" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Purposely" - the Dog & Everything
"Dumb Pop Song" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Frustration" - Crease
"Little One" - The Dog & Everything
"Frustration" - Crease
Nice Kick Pele (song unspecified)
"Someday We'll Know" - New Radicals
"Sin City" - Nice Kick Pele
"Just Lie to Me" - Love.45
"Ain't that a lot of Love" - Taj Mahal
"Karma Slave" - Splashdown
"Doin Time" - Sublime
"Slow Hands" - Interpol
"Remenissions" - Avenged Sevenfold
"Violent Love" - the Matches & Zebrahead
"Porch Song (live)" - Saraphine
"Hakuna Matata" - Lion King
"Sex Type Thing" - Stone Temple Pilots
"Hey Luv" - The Dog & Everything
"Thanks for Playing" - Stroke 9
"Change the World" - Love.45
"Dust in the Wind" - Kansas
"My Way" - Butch Walker
"The Motorcycle Song" - Arlo Guthrie
"Headstrong" - Trapt
"Wonderful" - Adam Ant
"Better" - Cowboy Mouth
"Seven" - Sinch
"Work" - Jimmy Eat World
Taking Back Sunday, Common Rider, "The Little Mermaid Song" - Lucky Boys Confusion, Lord of the Rings
"She Caught the Katy" - The Blues Brothers
"Conscious Burning" - Common Rider
"Leech" - Eve 6
"Arabian Dance (Coffee)" - Stevan Pasero
"Manny's Song" - Stroke 9
"Are You Gonna Be My Girl?" - Jet
"Sweetness" - The Matches
Lucky Boys Confusion
"Kiss the Girl" - The Little Mermaid
"Envy" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Laughing at Myself" - Stroke 9
"L.O.V.E" - Natalie Cole
"Violent Love" - the Matches & Zebrahead
"99 Luft Balloons" - Nena
"Never Met a Girl Like You" - Edwin Collins
"Harder They Come" - Me First and the Gimme Gimmes
"Love You From the Top" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Last Dance" - Suburban Legends
"Friends" - Cowboy Mouth
"Political Correctness" - Foamy the Squirrel
"Burning Bright' - Shinedown
"1000 Miles Per Hour" - OK Go
Nightmare Before Christmas
"The Lumberjack Song" - Monty Python
"Closer To Our Graves" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Hey Luv" - The Dog & Eveything
"Jumping Jack" - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy
Bill Hicks
"I Need You Here" - The Translation (Saraphine)
"Any Dream Will Do" - Joseph, Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
"Drugs (We're All Right)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Lead Not Follow" - Maxeen
Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
"The Gods Love Nubia" - Aida, Aida
"Capital H" - Motion City Soundtrack
"Gone So Young" - Amber Pacific
"Need You Here" - The Translation
"Sound Off" - The Dog & Everything
"Violent Love" - The Matches & Zebrahead
["We Are"]
"Gone So Young" - Amber Pacific
"Midnight Voyage" - The Mamas & The Papas
"Bruce's Philosopher Song" - Monty Python
"Believe" - Folder 5
"Need You Here" - The Translation
"Nameless Change" - My Former Self
"Manamana" - The Muppets
"The Motorcycle Song" - Arlo Guthrie
"Violent Love" - The Matches & Zebrahead
"Need You Here" - The Translation
"Never Let You Down" - The Verve Pipe
"Tear Me In Two (acoustic)" - Stroke 9
The Format
"Mediterranean Sundance" - Paco De Lucia & Al Di Meola
"Manamana" - The Muppets
"Chapter 4" - Avenged Sevenfold
"Words to Live By" - Stroke 9
"Slip Perfect" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Believe" - Folder 5
"Shining Ray" - Janne da Arc
"City Life (acoustic)" - Stroke 9
"Magic Carpet Ride" - Steppenwolf
"The Doom Song" - Gir, Invader Zim
"Waters of Eden" - California Guitar Trio
"Wonderful Days" - Pull-tab To Can
Bleach opening theme (not sure which one, probably "Asterisk")
"Hey Driver" - Lucky Boys Confusion
Ingram Hill
"The Galaxy Song" - Monty Python
"Freedom" - Aozu
The Matches
"6 Underground" - The Sneaker Pimps
"TV Queen" - 19 Wheels
"Tear Me In Two (acoustic)" - Stroke 9
"Sails" - Sinch
"Tabula Rasa" - Sinch
"Letters" - Stroke 9
"Hey" - Lucky Boys Confusion
California Guitar Trio, Cannonball Adderly
"After The Rain" - John Coltrane
"Life Is Like a Boat" - Bleach
"Manny's Song" - Stroke 9
"Never Be the Same" - Ingram Hill
"Aruki Hajimeta Hi" - Aozu
"Yer Motion" - Reeve Oliver
"Salty Eyes" - The Matches
Nutcracker For Guitar - Stevan Pasero
"Slip/Perfect" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"I'll Be the One" - (Dream?) Hikaru no Go
"Might as well Have a Good Time" - Crosby, Stills, and Nash
"Le Chanson De Soldat" (Soldier Song) - Lucky Boys Confusion
"After the Rain" - John Coltrane
"Mourning" - Tantric
"Timberwolves at New Jersey" - Taking Back Sunday
"Breathe (acoustic)" - Seven Channels
"Out Tonight" - Rent / Mimi
"Sakura Kiss" - Chieco Kawabe
"White Line" - Aozu
Dropkick Murphys (song unspecified)
"Teenagers" - My Chemical Romance
"King of Swing" - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy
"Mercy Mercy Mercy" - Cannonball Adderly
"You Can't Go To Sleep" - Street to Nowhere
"Teenagers" - My Chemical Romance
"Little Maggots" - the Matches
"Broadway Melody Ballet" - Gene Kelly, Singing in the Rain
"Shoot Me in the Smile" - the Matches
"Thanks for Playing" - Stroke 9
"Nina Morena" - Gipsy Kings
"Welcome to the Black Parade" - My Chemical Romance
"Vamos a Bailar" - Gipsy Kings
"Casey's" - the Dog and Everything
The Matches - E. Von Dahl Killed the Locals, Decomposer
"Hitotsu no Kessoku (instrumental)" - Suzumura Kenichi
"All Along the Watchtower" - Jimi Hendrix
"I Left My Heart in San Francisco" - Dean Martin
"Falling in Place" - Dog's Eye View
Daft Punk
"Colours" - Donovan
"Love So Sweet" - Arashi
"Danny Boy" - Harry Belafonte
"I've Got a Lovely Bunch of Coconuts" Monty Python?
"ABC" - Jackson 5
"The Un-Birthday Song" - Alice in Wonderland
"Country Preacher" - Cannonball Adderly
"Chapter 4" - Avenged Sevenfold
"The End" - The Doors
"Peaches" - Presidents of the United States of America
Liszt
"Freight Train" - Double Drive
"Sail On" - Masterplan
"Breathing" - Yellowcard
"Part of Your World" - Little Mermaid
"Be Like That" - 3 Doors Down
"So Cool" - 19 Wheels
"Child's Play" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Drive" - the Matches
"Canaan Days" - The Brothers, Joseph & the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
"Love Out Loud" - Phil Pritchett
"Walk Away" - Dropkick Murphys
"Do You Believe in Magic?" - Lovin' Spoonful
"I Got Rhythm" - Gene Kelly, American in Paris
"Luffy's Island Song" - Luffy, One Piece
"Mercy Mercy Mercy" - Cannonball Adderly
Daft Punk
"Gwendolyn B. Sings Sin" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Gwendolyn B. Sings Sin" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Slip/Perfect" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Batty Rap" - Batty (Robin Williams) Fern Gully
"Oogie Boogie's Song" - Ken Page, Nightmare Before Xmas
"Firefly" - Breaking Benjamin
"Papercut Skins" - The Matches
"Sakura Sake" - Arashi
"Wreck of the Sloop John B." - Catch 22
"Til I Hear It From You" - Gin Blossoms
"Santeria" - Sublime
"The Schooner Lake Set" - Gaelic Storm
"Conversations" - Finger Eleven
"The Obvious Child" - The Duke's Men of Yale
"Out of Control" - Rufio
"Summertime" - Big Brother and the Holding Company
"Point Me Toward the Morning" - The Matches
"Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" - Cats Don't Dance
"Whiter Shade of Pale" - Procul Harum
"Cold So Fast" - the Dog and Everything
"Magic Carpet Ride" - Steppenwolf
"Future Says Run" - Tonic
"Mr. Wilmington" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"I Am" - Zebrahead
"Lead the Way" - Stroke 9
"Do It Again" - Stroke 9
"Followed the Wrong Car" - Four Minute Mile
"Just Like Me (acoustic)" - Crease
"Nipples in the Winter (Something to Believe)" - Lucky Boys Confusion
"Brand New Action Hair-do" - Locale A.M.
"The Road Home" - Naked
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Ok, so no one will possibly appreciate this on the level I do because no one else is an LBC AND a Prince of Tennis fan, but still. Hilarious. "Hey Driver" + Prince of Tennis. Ahhh, good times. Couldn't stop laughing.

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